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wo0t [06 Aug 2020|02:53am]
been a real long time niggers

but new lj

m1ss_murder
eYeCandY

ohh boy [06 Oct 2014|02:36pm]
I cant help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried.
Im sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
3 Want * eYeCandY

whateva [24 Aug 2014|07:31pm]
So I havent been on here much...well because it sucks for one..

and ive been busy...
leaving for north carolina on august 29th...so yeah whateva
i wont be on for awhile..
just wanted to update to let everyone know im still alive and kickin in this bitch.


holller.
eYeCandY

yes um read this shit [28 Jun 2014|01:19pm]
[ mood | bored ]

I am pretty effing bored right now. Sitting here at work, emailing people. la la la

So yeah Im pretty pissed at this guy Im with. He keeps acting like a total asshole and its really starting to make me mad.
I still wanna be with him. No doubt about that but MOTHER FUCK gimmie a break kid.
I dunno its hard to explain and I really dont want to go into it right now.
Its just fucking stupid. I think I have Posion Ivy on my neck. Dont ask me how the fuck I got it there. I was diggin up weedds the other day.
I might have touched some and scratched my neck or something. I dunno but it itches and I think Ive scracthed off the first layer of skin.
Not for real, just kidding haha.

These 2 nerds came into the office today, omfg I almost laughed my ass off. They had lil vests on and they were all tucked in.
They were friends of Jim's and they all started talking in weird Star Wars language. Yeah whatever. gayness for sure.

For those of you who know who Daniel Keyser is, or for those of yall who have heard me talk about him. He claims he quit doing drugs and is clean now.
Good for him right. haha lets see how long his bitch ass stays clean.
Chris is back from Bradford. Well actually he has been back for a while, I just never wrote about it.
He got kicked out to be honest. How the hell do you get kicked out of a drug rehab center? Amazing
He broke a light-bulb and cut his wrists. Then he got pissed one day and broke a coffee pot over his head. He needs serious help and he wont
ever get it because he hates himself too much.

Its only 1:30pm and I dont get off until 5 or 5:30.
So that is like 4 hours. sweet.
Hope I get to play Halo tonight. Hope Opie doesnt turn fagish on me like he always does.
Im so sick of fighting with him. Its fucking chaos and it needs to just STOP and everything needs to go back to the way it was.
I have alot on my mind but everytime I try to talk to him, its like he doesnt even care. He needs to get the non-talking stick out
of his ass before I jam the bitch so far up there it will come through his mouth :D lol


But yeah whatever blah
Im bored with this so

bye <3

4 Want * eYeCandY

bleh [04 Jun 2014|08:32pm]
So Im house sitting for my moms friend this week.
I wont be around. Ill be on XBOX. That is where I will be for a week. Yeah a full week.
lol

Im bored
this sucks
-9dguv-9weuir90pod
eYeCandY

[01 Jun 2014|07:28pm]
Life has been so hard lately. Ive had so much drama the past month..
I know I scared alot of people with my last post. Sorry.
Im not going to explain the situation because I dont feel like I should have to.

So yeah whatever...Im still alive.


Bleh...Im addicted to Halo2 and all that XBOX LIVE jazz...

Im a nerd. :D
4 Want * eYeCandY

[21 May 2014|06:29pm]
FUCK EVERYONE IN THE PIECE OF SHIT WORLD




im killing myself tonight :D
yall might call me weak but oh well...
6 Want * eYeCandY

[01 May 2014|03:28pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

People are so heartless here in this hole of a state.
I hate it.

Im honestly on the verge of moving back to NC.
The more I think about it, the better it sounds.
I was so much happier when I lived there.
My dad always pissed me off but I dunno...my step-mom actually gives a fuck about me.
And here...I get pissed on.

blah blah blah
you all know the story...my life sucks. i cry too much. i complain all the time.
wah wah wah booo fucking hooo


fuck you all.

4 Want * eYeCandY

*sigh* this song [28 Apr 2014|04:03am]
[ mood | depressed ]

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should've let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid
I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself

'Cause I didn't know you
'Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt
The feeling that I'm feeling now
Now that I don't
Hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
We belong together

[Chorus:]
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody there
We belong together

I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Singing to me
'If you think you're lonely now'
Wait a minute
This is too deep, too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things
Crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life baby

[Chorus]

[Repeat chorus]
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
Baby nobody else
We belong together



Holy Christ I miss him. </3

eYeCandY

just a little conversation.... [24 Apr 2014|06:50pm]
always iinnocent: i fucking hate him. I HATE HIM
totallytotti16: ryan
always iinnocent: yeah
always iinnocent: he has been on the dilly talking to other girls
always iinnocent: he claims he is too busy to talk to me
always iinnocent: and too busy to come see me
always iinnocent: BUT HE CAN GET ON AND TALK TO OTHER GOD DAMN GIRLS
totallytotti16: dump him
always iinnocent: i cant
always iinnocent: im too weak
always iinnocent: cause i love him
always iinnocent: ill let his fuck me over till he ends it
always iinnocent: im a fucked up person
totallytotti16: no dont live like that
totallytotti16: its not healthy
totallytotti16: who is he on the dilly
always iinnocent: the_ren
totallytotti16: WHy would you put ur self threw this
totallytotti16: u dont need this in ur life...its not healthy for u
always iinnocent: and for the first time in my life...ive hated being blonde
always iinnocent: cause he doesnt like blondes
totallytotti16: oh my gosh
always iinnocent: here lately ive wanted nothing more than to change myself
always iinnocent: i want to dye my hair black
always iinnocent: and go get something pierced because he likes it
totallytotti16: oh dont do that cause of him
always iinnocent: i just want him to love me the way i love him
always iinnocent: and i dont know what to do to make him happy
always iinnocent: i feel so stupid
totallytotti16: dont worry about him he treats u like shit
always iinnocent: this just started though
always iinnocent: ever since i went to his house
always iinnocent: he used to be crazy about me
totallytotti16: yah i know
always iinnocent: i heard him say I LOVE YOU 13 million times a day
always iinnocent: i havent heard it in a week...or more
always iinnocent: i dunno
totallytotti16: it is not good
always iinnocent: i havent talked to him since last thursday
always iinnocent: except on the internet the other day
always iinnocent: which ended up in crying
always iinnocent: thats all i do now...is cry because im so confused and have no idea what to do








why dont you love me like you used to?
why do you treat me like a worn shoe?
fuck it.
1 Want * eYeCandY

[20 Apr 2014|02:30am]
Happy 420 everyone...I dont smoke but for those of yall that do...smoke a bowl for me <3


I honestly think that all men are fucking retards.
I dont understand them. I dont get how they go around not considering anyones feelings but their own.
I dont understand how they completely disregard that youre hurting.
I dont understand how they say "I LOVE YOU" and then not care that the person they love is in pain.
I dont understand when you say "I wont get to see you" and they say "I dunno what to tell ya"
I dont understand how you dont feel horrid when you dont get to talk to the person you care so much about..or at least claim to care so much about.

There is a shit load I dont understand...and Im sure nobody gives a flying fuck about how I feel and what I dont understand.

Im just sick of being confused and REALLY sick of crying wondering wtf tomorrow holds, wondering IF I'll get to talk to him....even though I know the truth. The truth being, I wont get to talk to him.

I havent heard him say "I love you" in at least a week.
I dont even think he loves me anymore. I dont think anyone in this world has ever said "I love you"
and meant it. What did I do wrong this time?? I cant even think of ANYTHING! When his friend told me I was smothering him, I stayed in the office away from him until he went to bed. 3 days I did this. I stayed away from him to make him happy. What does it take to make someone happy these days? Ive racked my brain wondering how, HOW CAN I MAKE THIS GUY HAPPY?!?!


I hate being sappy like this. I hate it. I feel weak and stupid for being so emotional.
So Im going to quit. Its not like anyone reads how hopeless my life is anyway...


<3
3 Want * eYeCandY

[09 Apr 2014|08:11pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

FUCK YOU BITCH NIGGAS


you all can suck my fucking twat cause none of yall ever fucking comment

you fucking pieces of lazy shits..


AIJSFOIAEYFR890QYR

grrrrrr



ryan is being stupid
and yeah today is our one monther. neat
i was gonna take him to dinner but he is being a fag
so blah to him


bye fuckers

2 Want * eYeCandY

[05 Apr 2014|12:38am]
[ mood | blank ]

Stolen from the great Andy...



How it works:
1) Give your cell phone number to your friends list.
2) Don't answer any calls that you don't recognize, allowing your friends to leave you messages.
3) If your friends list is game, they will leave hilarious messages, jokes, songs and riddles in your voice mail, and some will make you guess who they are by giving hints. The secret is to NOT ANSWER THE PHONE unless you recognize the number.

256.479.7398








TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:Erin
Birthday:October 1st 1985
Birthplace:Kingston, ON
Current Location:Madison, AL
Eye Color:Green
Hair Color:Blonde, Red, Black
Height:5'5
Right Handed or Left Handed:Right
Your Heritage:Irish, German, American, Canadian...
The Shoes You Wore Today:Birkenstocks
Your Weakness:Boys and wearing my heart on my sleeve
Your Fears:Being alone, spiders, going under water
Your Perfect Pizza:mmm pizza hut...cheese and black olives
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:Get my life in order.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:lmfao, stfu, omfg
Thoughts First Waking Up:WTF AM I DOING HERE??
Your Best Physical Feature:My lips..shit my whole face
Your Bedtime:whenever Im tired
Your Most Missed Memory:...being with someone who actually loves me
Pepsi or Coke:PEPSI
MacDonalds or Burger King:Burger King
Single or Group Dates:Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla:Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:BOTH
Do you Smoke:no
Do you Swear:like a sailor
Do you Sing:all the time
Do you Shower Daily:yep
Have you Been in Love:*sigh* yeah but they never seem to love me back
Do you want to go to College:yeah
Do you want to get Married:of course
Do you belive in yourself:not at all
Do you get Motion Sickness:JESUS, yes
Do you think you are Attractive:sometimes
Are you a Health Freak:um sometimes
Do you get along with your Parents:sometimes
Do you like Thunderstorms:YESSSS
Do you play an Instrument:guitar
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:yeah
In the past month have you Smoked:nope
In the past month have you been on Drugs:umm??
In the past month have you gone on a Date:yaeh
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:OF FUCKING COURSE
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:nope
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:gross
In the past month have you been on Stage:no but on camera ;) heh
In the past month have you been Dumped:no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:noooooo
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:yes
Ever been Drunk:lmfao yeah
Ever been called a Tease:hahaha the other night...
Ever been Beaten up:nope cause im hard
Ever Shoplifted:yeah
How do you want to Die:.....
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:graphic designer
What country would you most like to Visit:Italy
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:Blue
Favourite Hair Color:Any
Short or Long Hair:either
Height:doesnt matter
Weight:umm not too fat not too skinny
Best Clothing Style:whatever
Number of Drugs I have taken:hahahah erm yeah
Number of CDs I own:omfgggggg i cant even count
Number of Piercings:a couple
Number of Tattoos:none..yet
Number of things in my Past I Regret:too many to name

CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!
eYeCandY

[24 Mar 2014|10:01pm]
so.

whats up with all you bitches??????



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I did this twice cause Im fucking awesome.

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2 Want * eYeCandY

You bitches better fucking do this!!!!!! [16 Mar 2014|06:14pm]
fill this out n post it under comments then i'll do the same for you :)

1. Who are you? -
2. Are we friends? -
3. When and how did we meet? -
4. Do you have a crush on me? -
5. Would you kiss me? -
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. -
7. Describe me in one word. -
8. What was your first impression? -
9. Do you still think that way about me now? -
10. What reminds you of me? -
11. If you could give me anything what would it be? -
12. How well do you know me? -
13. When's the last time you saw me? -
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? -
15. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you? -
5 Want * eYeCandY

[16 Mar 2014|05:43pm]
and it starts again.



HE NEVER FUCKING STOPS

always on my case about every little thing i do.

baoidfuq089e73w


STFU DICKFACE
eYeCandY

[12 Mar 2014|09:25pm]
[ mood | numb ]

Im fucking bored. And getting yelled at by everyone in the world.
neat.
Im exhausted. I went to bed this morning at 7.
And had to be up at 10. It was rough. So Im about to fall out in the floor.
My eyes are like half closed...I look high as fuck.
you can imagine.


So Im just sittin here listenin to a hockey game on the internet.
SPHL..
wooo
We won tonight as well <3
bout fucking time.


I wanna run away
and never come back
to this place
or these people


the only people id miss is
Mom
Brianna
Brenda
Lindsay
Keyser 1 & 2


i need a xanex
someone get me some


kgo.


ok im bored with this

later <3

3 Want * eYeCandY

[10 Mar 2014|02:03am]
FUCK MEN!!!!!!


Why are you fuckers so god damn stupid!?!?!???!!?!?



I hate you all. I hate all FUCKING MEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





thnx
bye.
eYeCandY

[08 Mar 2014|11:31pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

I know yall are tired of hearing me whine..

but life just gets worse everyday.

I miss DJ.

Josh hates me.

Jay....god knows where he is. who fucking cares anymore.


I give up.
This time I honestly mean it.

Im done. with everything and everyone.

eYeCandY

[28 Feb 2014|08:40pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

Im so tired of broken promises..
1 Want * eYeCandY

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